11/01/11
And we begin.
I realized today, that I need to give up.
So, I give up. I let go.
If I am going to do this, then I might as well realize that I do not know what I am doing.
So, starting today, I start over.
I want to be the person I always thought I was inside: wise, calm, powerful (for self), healthy, loving, kind, amazing...and I think, somehow, being enlightened will get me that.
Or this journey that I am labeling "getting enlightened" will get me that.
OR, even if it is ultimately how I feel, (I am truly laughing outloud) then perhaps again, this journey will get me that.
Oh - side note on meditating- I realized if I set an alarm, then I am not wondering for the whole 15 mintues if it has been 15 minutes. May seem obvious, but I thought I would share.
Talk to you soon.
